Karen had brought the boxes from Dallas, flattened, in the trunk of her car, along with a roll of packing tape and three markers, one red, one green, one black. By eight in the morning she had assembled a box for each marker and lined them up across the kitchen floor like a firing squad. KEEP. GIVE. TOSS.
"We'll go cabinet by cabinet," she said. "Left to right. Nobody leaves the kitchen until the kitchen is done."
Beth was still in her bathrobe. She lived eleven minutes away and had driven over every morning for two years, first to check on Mother and then to take care of her, and she had not yet gotten used to coming in the back door without calling hello. She stood holding her coffee and looking at the boxes.
"You can't toss the kitchen," she said.
"Nobody's tossing the kitchen. We're tossing what's in it."
"That's what the kitchen is."
Robin, the youngest, sat at the table with her knees drawn up in her chair the way their mother had always told her not to, and said nothing, which was what Robin did in the mornings, and in the afternoons, and at Christmas. She had flown in from Portland on Thursday with one carry-on bag, as if she meant to stay a shorter time than her sisters, or wanted them to think so.
Karen opened the first cabinet. It was the Tupperware.
There was a great deal of it. It had been accumulating, by Karen's estimate, since the Johnson administration, and it was arranged according to a system that had died with their mother: bowls nested in bowls, lids stacked by color, the orange ones that nobody had seen in use since 1979 kept in the back, as if in reserve for some emergency that required the color orange. Karen took out an armload and set it on the counter. A lid fell and rolled under the table, and all three of them watched it go.
"Give," said Karen, and dropped the armload into the green box.
Beth took a bowl back out. "This is the one she made the potato salad in."
"Beth, they're all the one she made the potato salad in."
"No, they're not. This one has the little crack on the rim. She'd never use it for anything else, because the crack would let the air in, and she said potato salad didn't care."
Karen looked at the bowl, and at her sister, and Beth could see her deciding whether this was the hill. Karen was the oldest, and she had been deciding which hills to die on since she was seven.
"Keep," Karen said finally, and wrote POTATO SALAD on a strip of masking tape and stuck it to the side, as if otherwise someone might use it for something else.
They did the cabinets in an hour and a half. Glasses: give, except the four jelly glasses with the cartoon characters, which Beth wanted and Karen pretended not to see her take. Pans: Beth. The good roaster: a long silence, then Karen, because she was the one who did Thanksgiving now. Spices: toss, all of them. Some of the spices were older than Robin. The paprika had gone the color of brick dust.
Then Karen opened the drawer by the telephone.
Every kitchen has the drawer. Theirs had rubber bands, twist ties, a church bulletin, birthday candles in four colors, a screwdriver with a yellow handle, keys to nothing, a book of stamps with an eagle on them, and a coupon for a free car wash that expired in 1986. Karen began to dump it into the black box, and stopped, because under the coupon there was a stack of paper held together with a binder clip, two inches thick.
Robin put her feet on the floor.
They were grocery lists. Hundreds of them, on the backs of envelopes and the margins of bulletins and on the little pads the bank gave away, in their mother's slanted hand, and they went back years. Milk, eggs, Karen's cereal (NOT the sugar one). Birthday candles — how old is Bethie, 9? 10?? Liver for Daddy, ugh. Get the good coffee, Robin home Sat.
"Why would she keep these?" Karen said.
Nobody answered her. Robin had come around the table and was reading over her shoulder. After a while she reached out, took the top half of the stack, and sat down on the kitchen floor beside the boxes to go through it, one list at a time, the way you'd read letters.
It was the first thing Robin had picked up since she came home.